What’s with the wierd clothes layering
I guess the fashion this year is short sleeves over long but I think it looks weird. The news anchor lady was wearing a lavender short sleeved dress over a longs sleeved dark purple top today. It was just odd looking. To me it looked like she forgot to take her pajama top off before she put on her dress.
Some people take it too far though. The other day I saw a lady wearing this top over a top like this except hers didn’t have an elastic waist so the bottom of the underneath shirt bunched up and stuck out. This woman thought she was high class: expensive shoes, perfectly applied make-up, “expertly” frosted, cut and styled blond hair. And yet she chose to put those two tops together. 
I just don’t get it.
Hair:
I cut it today. I did it myself and cut about 2.5″ off. It’s still wet or I’d take pics but it feels good. I didn’t measure before I cut but I measured the cut ends and then measured after I was done. I’m solidly at 27.5″ so I guess I finally made it to 30″ before I made any changes.
I’ll get pics later.
I decided to start with small changes. Like Amoretti, I was not enjoying my hair down. Maybe this slightly shorter length will be enough.
I was thinking about layers again but I just don’t know. I’ve never liked them before. But I was thinking that if I only layer the top 2/3rds I might like it better. I might need to go a lot shorter before the curl starts to come back. I’m not ready for that yet.
Oh, and I hennaed over the weekend.
Ebook:
I finally got the correct USB cord from the seller the day after the deadline I gave her. I did get an email from her that she’d mailed it on the day she said she was going to so I gave her the leeway.
With the USB cord, I found I can use a different program than Librarian to add my already purchased ebooks. They go straight on the book in Word form so no mucking about with a second conversion. Works great and looks just like I did when I saved the Word file. It’ nice.
This program is free too. Librarian gave me a free two week trial but then I was going to have to pay for it. I just uninstalled it 
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Work:
I talked to the guy yesterday and he still hadn’t gotten the information for me. He is leaving today for a 16 day work trip. I gave him an envelope to put the info is an drop it off since I’m off today. I’m not sure how much hope I have that he will actually do it. Then again, he was the one who brought up the subject up to me this time so maybe he will.
I’m with Rain
I’m not waiting anymore either.
It’s been a while but Rain once posted about a dream she’d had where she’d found a zipper in her skin and when she unzipped it, she stepped out of a “fat suit” (her words) and found a lovely, slender woman inside.
I’ve actually used that visualization in self hypnosis sessions. Lately I’ve been telling my inner lovely, slender woman that it’s time to come out, that she would be happier if she stopped hiding, that she would be healthier and feel better too. It’s too early to tell if she’s listening but I’m being persistent.
I haven’t tried sitting for a long time. I need to remind myself that all I need to do is sit. I don’t need to actively do self-hypnosis. I can just sit there and let my mind wander.
I’ve also been trying to get a nap in every afternoon. There are no two ways about it: I don’t get enough sleep. I am a night person and never make it to bed before 9:30 but it’s usually more like 10:30. I get up at 4:30. I go through phases where I wake every night in the wee hours. I usually go right back to sleep but it is still a disruption in sleep. Even if I didn’t wake up, that’s still only 6 hours of sleep and it’s simply not enough. Therefore: nap!
Cars and Spiritualism:
Sk8er Boi’s jeep is currently in pieces in the garage. Something broke when he was going 60 MPH and flapped around under there until he got it stopped. The flapping did a bunch of damage. Thankfully, he has been able to rob parts of the wrecked Jeep he bought so we’ve had minimal cost there. However, he’s going to have to bastardize the transfer cases from both Jeeps to make one working one. He’s waiting for a co-worker to help him on that.
Anyway, what that means for me is that I have been car-less for three days now because he is driving mine. I walk to work so no big deal there but I am going stir crazy at home.
I had to ask Shari to take me to the grocery store today. Shari is the other friend I mentioned who started out just being a regular at my store.
So, Shari tells me today that she is Wiccan. This is what I have been looking for, someone who is in the area who I can go to with questions etc. Strangely, I shied away from the subject. I guess–for that moment–my tired brain decided that I would have to make a decision right then and there about my “religious” status. I haven’t mentioned anything to Sk8er Boi about not being Christian. I really don’t know what he would think about it. I guess I’m afraid it would majorly put him off. He is not a religions man but he does believe in God.
But after thinking about it, I know that I can just talk to her about her experiences, ask her questions about rituals etc without actually declaring myself any religion.
Speaking of Wiccans in my area, I’ve received two emails from my Which Vox profile (which I have totally not been active on in months). The first email was from a man and, even though he never said anything in the actually words he wrote, the feeling was that he was a sleeze hitting on me. The second was from a woman who was semi close but the first sentence she wrote was something like “it try and stay mostly on the light side…” Um, OK, I don’t think I want to associate with anyone who mess around with dark magic. I do believe there is evil out there and I don’t want to muck about with it.
eBookwise:
It’s Wed 11/4 and I have not received the USB cord. I’m going to give it until tomorrow in case USPS is a little slower than last time.
I’m thinking about just filing for a total refund, shipping this damn thing back and buying a new one. This one has suddenly developed a black line across the top. I can make it go away but it’s back the next time I turn the thing on. It doesn’t interfere with the menus or reading but I fear it may be indicative of things to come. I’m going to be really pissed if the thing shoots craps shortly.
I just checked the listing again, there is no “as is” or “no warranty” mentioned. I’ll have to decide what I want to do by tomorrow.
Let me ask you a question
If you were me, would you expect the USB cable to be included with the eBookwise or not?
note: The seller did not say it was included but she also did not say it was not included. It simply was not mentioned at all.
Please answer this question honestly. As much as I would appreciate people siding with me because they are my friends, I’d like to get unbiased opinions in case I do have to file a claim with PayPal.
As mentioned, one cannot purchase books from eBookwise without registering the unit. In order to register the unit, one needs the USB cord.
Yes you can load books onto a disk but they must go through the eBookwise format conversion program, Librarian, in order for them to be viewable. I have had (mostly) successful conversions with shorter books but when I try to convert a book the length of Twilight, New Moon, etc., it gets corrupt and the unit cannot open it. Also, probably 99% of ebooks other than from eBookwise are in PDF format. In order for Librarian to convert it, it has to be converted to Word first. With all these conversions, words get dropped, unrecognized spellings get confused, paragraphs get broken apart or run together. It’s a PIA to fix an entire book after converting from PDF to Word just to have it corrupt again when converted to Librarian.
Anyway, this is the email I sent to Seller:
The last one you sent on 10/24 and I had in my hands on 10/26 so that means you didn’t get this one out “ASAP” if you’ve gotten it out at all.
I have to say that I’m getting very tired of this. I purchased the unit with every intention of purchasing books from the eBookwise site WHICH I CAN’T DO WITHOUT THE USB CABLE THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN INCLUDED IN THE FIRST PLACE.
I have not been able to use the thing in a week because I have read the only two ebooks I currently own.
If I do not have the CORRECT cable in my hands by Wed 11/4/09, I will be posting a follow up on the feedback I left you and filing a claim with PayPal for a partial refund.
This is ridiculous!!!
This is what I received from her this morning:
and, of course, she had to add the “God Bless You.” This tells me she is making a dig at my “good Christian attitude.”
Funny, she is assuming I am Christian….
I wrote back:
I believe I do have grounds. You did not state that they were NOT included in the sale.
Blessed Be
I might have just screwed myself out of her sending the cable tomorrow but at this point, I’m willing to pay the $15 to eBookwise just to put an end to this stupidness. Oh, I’ll still file the claim with PayPal on principle but the last time I did that it took three months to settle.
The Creeping Crud:
Thanks again to all who sent “get well” wishes. I actually felt better Tues. I still have crap in my sinuses draining into my throat but I don’t feel sick.
Sk8er Boi told me Mon morning, after having woken up in the night and listened to me snore, that he thinks I should go have a sleep study done and that he thinks I might have sleep apnea. He did not hear me gasping for air he just heard me stop snoring for a second or two at a time.
I’m not so sure we should jump to the sleep apnea conclusion so fast. A) I was still highly congested the night he was listening to me. B) I have started snoring since I have gained weight. However, I only snore when I am sleeping on my back.
He mentioned that I’ve said I never feel rested. Well, I haven’t felt rested since my first car accident in 1991. That’s when my chronic neck problems started. That’s when I started not being able to sleep through the night. I weighed 30 lbs less then and did not snore.
I would have the sleep study done just to prove him wrong but it costs money that we don’t have. Even if my insurance covered it, there would still be a copay–which is more for a specialist–for every visit.
Work:
There is a regular at my store with whom I’ve talked to about working at the company he works for. I’ve applied at this company before but, through him, I’ve learned that 90% or their employees were originally hired to work in the call center and moved up from there. That’s what he did.
I didn’t pursue it because the next thing I knew, he was telling me that they were doing major lay-offs. Now he is telling me that they are hiring for call center again.
The problem is that I would have to go through an employment agency to get hired. I hate employment agencies. I have been to four in the 7 years since I have been here and not one of them has helped me in the slightest. Their non-helpfullness ranged from not even bothering to have me do their standard typing, etc. test to trying to send me to jobs so far away that I’d have lost money in paying for gas to not even trying to help me because I already had a job even though I specifically told them I wanted out of said job.
He hasn’t given me the specifics on which agency it is yet–they’ve changed agencies since he was hired–but I’m apprehensive about going at all. I’m afraid my distaste for employment agencies will show all over my face and they will decide not to help me before they even talk to me. I’m also afraid that, for whatever other reason, they won’t help me because past experience tells me they won’t.
Updates
Woke up Friday coughing but nothing else. Went to work, continued to cough so JP sent me home with a half day of vacation.
Had Sat and Sun off which I spent piled up on the couch being a mouth-breather and creating a used tissue sculpture. Went back to work on Mon but JP sent me home again with another half day of vacation. Had Tuesday off.
Went back to work on Wed to be greeted with comments like, “You just had four days off!” as if to say, it’s time to actually do some work. OK, A) I did not have four days off. I got up at the a$$-crack of dawn on Fri and Mon B) it was not my choice to go home those two days. Sat and Sun were my scheduled days off. I only get two weekends a month off so I’m not going to feel bad when I don’t come to work on those days. And C) I felt like $h!t those days so it’s not like I was on vacation in Jamaica or something!
Besides, if I had not been sick and simply took vacation, are you saying that I didn’t deserve them? That I didn’t work hard on the days I was there and earned them?? 
eBook:
The seller is a dolt!! The first cord she sent me was a USB extender. For those who don’t know, it’s an extension cord for a USB. Obviously, it didn’t work. I emailed her telling her and took a pic of the USB port on the unit and included it.
In the mean time, I had contacted eBookwise directly inquiring about the possibility of getting a new one. I received a return email with the proper…whatchacallit…specs and included that in the second email I sent to Seller–because she didn’t respond to the first one. She responded to the second one stating that she’s sent another USB cord and “I hope that customer service guy you talked to really has no idea what he is talking about because I sent you a [specs disputing specs eBookwise gave me]”
Um, OK, the man only works for the freaking company that sells them!!!
*note: all this time the woman has been spouting jargon like she is the USB cable queen.
Of course, when it arrived, it didn’t work. I emailed again telling her again that it didn’t work and asked for a partial refund for the purchase price of the one from the company. She now says she has found the “correct” USB cable–meaning the one that is supposed to go with the unit–and she is mailing it out ASAP. That was Mon. I still do not have it.
I’m about to compose a not so pleasant email to her that I’m getting fed up with the run-around. And when this last cable finally arrives and it doesn’t fit, I’m not even going to email her. I’m just going to file a claim with PayPal for that partial refund. If I don’t soon, I will run out of time.
There was something else I was going to say but I can’t remember now. I’m going to go take a nap ans see if it comes to me. 
Feeling antisocial
*WARNING: whiny rant with some harsh words about an a fore mentioned topic*
Bite me. That was going to be the title of my blog post because that’s how I feel when I log in here and find that nobody or maybe one person has commented on my most recent post. It frustrates me to no end that I come here and write about something important in my life and nobody responds. I am instantly transported back to my school days where I am an insecure girl thinking nobody likes me and keeping my head down so the popular kids won’t notice me lest they tease me.
Often, I write here because I am looking for feedback from my friends. More and more often lately, I get very little and I feel rejected. Why is it that one person gets numerous responses when they write about what hair care product they use and I get one or none when I write about life altering event? OK, that’s an exaggeration but you get my meaning. And, yes, this is a hair-care board but you and I know that it’s also a community encompassing much, much more.
I actually got 4 whole comments on my last post but that was because I wrote about possibly cutting my hair. Every comment was telling me not to do it and the rest of the post, albeit short, was ignored.
*Disclaimer: My insecurity monster is fully out of its hiding place and running rampant. I realize that there are people out there with bigger problems than me. I realize people have their own lives and mine will never be as important. I am simply some acquaintance that most people have never met IRL. That’s the way it’s supposed to be.
*Disclaimer #2: This was not written with the intent to illicit more comments. It’s my blog and I’m writing about my feelings. I have not said anything unkind about any other members and believe I have otherwise followed the LHC guidelines.
Meltdown:
The above mentioned contributed to but certainly did not cause a major meltdown I had on Friday night. Another contributing factor was that J asked me to burn her a couple of CDs. I knew that once she had them, she would not talk to me again until the next time she wanted something. She would either ignore me or, if she was forced to interact with me (as in, she was here in town) she would flip me attitude. I feel used and it pisses me off. I should have told her “no” but that would cause problems with Sk8er Boi.
Friday, I was in a mood. I spent all day trying to download all the songs J wanted and fighting with Widows Media Player because it refused to cooperate. I was also trying to clean house because Sk8er Boi was picking up B for fall break. J, once again, chose not to come.
In the evening, I ordered Chinese for the three of us for dinner. It irritates me that this job always falls to me. I guess I have a mild phone phobia too when it comes to talking to strangers but, apparently so does Sk8er Boi and his is worse. But I digress. The girl who answers the phone at the Chinese place we order from barely speaks English. She is difficult to understand and has messed up our order two out of three times since she took over phone duty.
When our order arrived, my item was missing. I called, tried my damnedest to be as polite as possible but got frustrated with Miss. Very-Little-English very quickly. I had to repeat myself over and over and over. I had to ask her to repeat herself just as often. Now, don’t get me wrong, I absolutely do not feel that Miss. VLE is stupid or does not deserve to be here (unless she is illegally here) or anything like that. I do, however, fell like she should not be taking phone orders when the language barrier is so great.
After dinner, of which Sk8er Boi had to share his, the topic came back up and he said, “…I felt sorry for her. You were so nasty to her.” (huge emphasis on the word “nasty”) Well, that was it. Meltdown city. I went upstairs and cried for about 45 min after screaming at Sk8er Boi to leave me that he!! alone. I didn’t talk to anyone for the rest of the night and went to bed early.
I have this problem. When I am frustrated and/or angry, what comes out of my mouth sounds rude. I have no intention of sounding rude, I do not want to sound rude but I do. And the harder I try not to sound rude, the worse it gets. I do not know how to fix this.
Anyway, I cannot explain Friday’s meltdown other that the contributing factors mentioned. None of them were big enough, in my mind, to created the feelings I had that caused me to cry for a full 45 min before I could calm down. The funny thing is that I was just thinking on Thursday that the SAM-e I’ve been taking has had a positive impact on my overall mood. I guess not.
~~~~~~in other news~~~~~~
I got myself an eBookwise with my birthday money. It’s much cheaper that a Kindle or a Sony to begin with but this one was on eBay “like-new” and even cheaper still. It does not have all the bells and whistles of a Kindle or Sony but I don’t need all that. It does have what I wanted which is a backlight so I can read in bed without the light on disturbing Sk8er Boi or having to fight with those stupid little book lights that never shine where you need them to.
I am a bit miffed with the seller though. She did not include the USB cable which one needs to register the unit and one must have a registered unit to purchase books from the eBookwise site. When I asked her for it, she asked me to pay for shipping of it. It was only $2 but then she felt the need to tell me that she paid $7.50 to ship it “but that’s OK” 
. In my opinion, the damn thing should have been sent with the unit. I paid the $2 because I wanted it and, as I have had such problems with eBay sellers in the past, I didn’t want her to refuse to send it. I would have paid more to purchase a new one.
I have been using it and love it otherwise. It does look like new, no scratches or dings. Works like a dream.
So, the PDA/eBook thing…
It’s got a book reader program on it but it must be activated. I tried activating it yesterday and thought I was successful but obviously not as today it again told me I needed to activate it. I tried activating it but now, for some reason, the docking station is not connecting to the computer.
On the SD card the seller included there is an Adobe reader program. I’m thinking this is cool because the eBooks I bought are in PDF format. Well, in order for the text to be big enough to read, there are about 7 words on the page and I’d have to continuously scroll left to right. It doesn’t scroll smoothly so reading is disjointed.
What I have discovered I can do is convert the book into a Word document, divide it into three of four chapter segments–because the entire book is too large a document and trying to open it confuses the thing and it eventually locks up–load them onto the SD card and read the book in Word.
It’s possible but it’s a huge PITA!!!!! I want a real eBook reader even more now!!!! I will have one!!! I will find a way!!!
Oh, and when it locks up, I have to wait for the battery to die to get it unlocked. After it locked up last night, I thought, no big deal, now I know not to try to open that large a document so it won’t happen again. Wrong. It just locked up again for no explainable reason.
In other news:
Farah Fawcett is gone and so is MJ. I feel little for the passing of MJ. My personal opinion is that he was mentally unstable and a pedophile. The only thing that kept him out of jail was his money and his status.
And then there’s Farah who fought so valiantly against cancer and was willing to share that fight with the public. I have very strong opinions about the public needing to know every little detail of celebrities lives but I found information in the story of Farah’s fight. Information that might be useful if I or someone I love ever develops cancer.
But it’s Michael Freaking Jackson who has been plastered all over the news last night and today. There was probably 10 minutes on Farah but MJ has been on there every time I’ve walked by the TV. 
I don’t under stand why MJ’s life and passing are so much more important than Farah’s. It’s just wrong!
Another strange thing happened:
I was laying in bed last night in twilight sleep when suddenly Abby’s faced popped into my head. Not but a minute or two later, she jumped up on the bed. It was like some foresight that she was on her way….
I had a whole entry written
I’ve got it working again but I must talk to the girls about not downloading things without asking.
Hair:
I never thought I’d say thins but I kinda miss my curls. OK, I don’t miss my curls as my curls were so weak the flopped every time I tried to wear it curly. I do think updos where ends stick out look better with curly ends. My ends stick out with every updo I do. They did before I cut the sides but now they really do.
Books:
The UPS tracking number on my PDA/ebook reader says “out for delivery.” I’m excited!! None too soon either as I finished New Moon last night and don’t have another paper book to read. The guy waited 5 days to ship the bloody thing!!! To be fair, the auction does say “ships within 5 days” but, WTH, did he have to wait the whole 5 days???
I now have the entire series of Twilight, House of Night, The Moon Called and Sookie Stackhouse on eBook. I’ve never read The Moon Called series but it sounded good and was only $1.95 plus combined shipping with the other books.
Oh, speak of the devil!!! Here comes UPS now!!!
