Gahhh. I’m so sick of this phone bullcrap!!!
The little snot had the balls to text that to me today. I soooo wanted to text back that she is the cause of all “this phone bullcrap!!!”
She got her phone. The bluetooth doesn’t work. Now, after she flatly refused to have a touch screen, she’s had a chance to play with B’s and wants one too.
We have a 30 day if-you-don’t-like-it-you-can-bring-it-back warranty so no big deal except that she would have to mail it in and wait for AT&T to go through all the exchange BS which could take weeks. Or she can go into an AT&T store for the exchange. The problem with that is that the phone she wants is more expensive (by $50 that we get back with a mail-in rebate) so she’d have to have the money at the time of the exchange. I called the store to see if they would take a credit card over the phone but they were closed already. I left a voicemail. When they call back I’ll have to take the call tomorrow at work and JP will have to like it or lump it.
Hair:
Still on my head. Thinking it might be time for a trim. Thinking it might be time for a new stylist since the last time she did exactly the opposite of what I asked her to do.
NO, I changed my mind. I’m going to see if I can wait until I get to 30″ first.
Heal my heels:
I haven’t decided if it’s working any better that anything else I’ve tried. It’s only been a week.
It soaks in quickly and the peanut butter small doesn’t linger so that’s a plus.
Just Stuff
DsD:
Still haven’t talked to Sk8er Boi about J and the conclusions I have come to. I haven’t had a chance. He hasn’t been home at all this week until late in the evening or after I’ve gone to bed. After a slow summer because of the economy, work is finally picking up for them. It’s great but go figure. When I need to have a discussion with him….
Hair:
I hennaed Saturday night. I did a full head, not just the roots thins time. It sat for 8 hours but I still didn’t get as deep a stain as I got with PP from H4H. It’s deeper than when I just did the roots and left it for less time but it still looks orange to me.
I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s best for me to sleep in my henna. As much as it disturbs my sleep to have green goop and plastic on my head and to be worrying about it running down me cheek or neck and staining, it’s better for my neck than to hold my head up with two tons of henna on my hair.
Heal My Heels:
I got my stuff from GoW last last week and mixed it up. I used:
1 oz neem oil
1oz emu oil
1 oz Kokum Butter
0.2 oz Karanja oil
melted the Kokum butter, mixed the other ingredients in and allowed it to cool. I ended up adding 20 drops of cedar EO but it nothing eliminates the neem smell. I don’t think it’s that bad though; is smells like peanut butter to me–PB that’s a little funky but PB nonetheless.
It’s think a grainy but the graininess goes away as soon as it touches my skin.
Interesting:
One of the affirmations in the Love You Body audio book is about fingernails. Louise Hay writes: Quote: I love my fingernails:
My fingernails are a joy to look at. I am protected and safe. As I relax and trust life to unfold before me, my nails grow strong and hard. I love and appreciate all the wonderful details of my life. I choose the thoughts that let the minor details be handled easily and effortlessly.
I love and appreciate my beautiful fingernails. Yes, it is a little hokey and often the things are not related to the body part but if it works, I’ll roll with it.
Anyway, the point is that since I’ve started listening to it, I’ve broken my left index finger three times. Every time it starts to catch up the the other fingernails–which I don’t keep very long–I break it to the quick again. And tonight I broke the left middle fingernail past the quick to the point that it bled.
I wonder if that means I’m not handling the minor details “easily and effortlessly.”
There is no freaking fire!!
so shut the 
up!!!!
Yes, at 3:45 the AM, they did it again!!! Sk8er Boi says they either need new batteries or they are detecting carbon monoxide. My personal opinion is that they wouldn’t be shouting “fire” if CO2 was the problem. They are currently all unplugged. We will replace batteries today.
No Blackberry for J:
We found out yesterday that, as of 9/6/09 AT&T now REQUIRES a PDA package for all “smart phones” of which the Blackberry is one and the Blackjack that B picked out is another. That means that if they hadn’t fiddle-farted around picking out the phones they wanted (or in J’s case, which Blackberry would be “acceptable”), AT&T would have grandfathered us in without it.
pgw, we made it clear to her from the get-go that we would not pay for the PDA package even if she had a Blackberry. She wanted it anyway. Now they both have to pick out different phones. B is OK with that. J, OTOH, is throwing a hissy fit. I don’t think I would add it on even if she had a job and was supposed to pay a portion of the bill. Well, maybe I would, I could always suspend service to her phone if she didn’t pay….
Birthday dinners:
Amoretti, you’re right, definitely passive-aggressive behavior; my mother’s specialty.
Mom has bowed out again. I got an email from her stating that she was over the “flu” and so was dad but now “It’s possible I’m dealing with the beginnings of a sinus infection.” I haven’t answered her but I’m going to just tell her to forget it. Sk8er Boi is on call next weekend and the following two weekends are potentials for my birthday get together since my actual birthday is on a Wednesday.
pgw, we did go without her for my dad’s b-day in July. It wasn’t any fun either. He defended her at every turn and then was an @$$ in his own right.
Can you tell I don’t feel much like for either of my parents right now? I love them, they are my parents, but I don’t like them.
Hair:
I measured yesterday. I’m at 29.5 inches. When I got it trimmed in June I was at 27 so that’s a slightly above average growth rate. I should be at hip in just over another month!
Heal my heels:
I decided on Kokum Butter for my make-my-own Heeltastic. I ordered it on Tuesday but apparently there was some mix-up in shipping and it didn’t go out until yesterday. GoW has not given me a reason for the delay so I’m assuming someone screwed up and they don’t want to admit it. I don’t feel the need to press the matter.
I ordered some cedar EO to try to cover the neem smell. Cedar because I am making it for both Sk8er Boi and myself and I don’t think he’d like it to smell all girly.
“Dad, the only kind of phone I want is a Blackberry…”
because they last!” (read here: I can abuse it longer before it shoots craps.)
More time on AT&T’s website, more phone pics, this time a couple of Blackberries that are still new (as in, completely unused/not refurbished) but older versions.
“But Daa-a-aad, those are all old!!”
You know, Sk8er Boi has been fixing cars for Dr. B on the side. It saves Dr. B money and puts some extra in our pocket. The thing is that all the cars that we’ve had in our garage have been Dr. B’s kid’s cars. Sk8er Boi made the statement to me the Br. B is not doing his kids any favors by paying to have their cars fixed for them.
Um…
This is different how?
Love your body:
“written in red” by Louise Hay (it actually says the “in red” part at the beginning).
This is an audio book of a series of “positive affirmation treatments.” I have been listening to it for a couple of weeks now. She suggests you listen to it twice a day for at least 30 day. It’s an hour long, I sometimes have trouble listening to it all the way though once a day. But I’m trying.
I have noticed a few minor changes. Mainly just booting negative thoughts out not actually having positive thoughts about the things I have dislike for…as long as I have cared what I looked like.
Heeltastic:
I didn’t get many responses my post on the H&B board for this. a couple suggesting other products and one suggesting I make it myself. Well, that’s what I’m planning to do. I just haven’t decided on a base yet. I’m stuck between getting some shea butter and using the GoW base body lotion I already have. Between the neem oil which GoW says stinks to high heaven and the fact that I will only be using it on my feel, the mild stable smell shouldn’t be a problem.
Better Today
I’m still irritated with the whole J’s new phone thing but I’m trying not to let it bother me. Justy, you’re right. The funny thing is that I’m not even interested in a stupid Blackberry.
When I finally talked to Sk8er Boi about it, he asked me “did she give you any alternatives besides the Blackberry?” I’m assuming that means that he does not intend to get it for her. When he got home last night I asked him if he’d talked to her but he said he hadn’t.
Again, I’m leaving it to him to tell her she can’t have that phone. I’m hoping she says “Well, then forget it!!” because we only have two line eligible for upgrade and Sk8er Boi’s phone is starting to shoot craps so he’s going to need one very soon. I’m going to try to get him the Samsung Rugby for his birthday which he has been lusting after for a while now. But I really like the Motorola Karma. I don’t need a new phone but I have a birthday coming up soon too….
Work:
I got two calls last week for jobs. I had not sent my resume to either of them, they simply pulled my resume off Monster.com. The first one was so obviously a pyramid scam–I mean scheme–that I declined and was off the phone in five minutes.
The second one was…well, I wondered about it but thought I’d go along; I could always decline the job. The recruiter who called me was very vague about what my duties would be and when I asked for more detail she told me that was all she was allowed to say. She did give ma a legitimate website to visit and asked me to call back after I had. When I called her back, I did not have my schedule for the following week so she said to call again when I did. I called and she wasn’t there. I left a message. She did not call back. I called again yesterday at about 5:30 and got an “our office is closed” message. I thought it was odd because I’d talked to this woman at 7:30 before.
I called again today, got a not quite polite man who informed me that she was gone for the day but could he help me? I told him the situation and what my day off was. He said something about it was “not going to work out” (those five words are exact)for me to interview. If someone said that to you, wouldn’t you think you were being blown off? That’s how I took it and called him on it. He got snippy and said, “well, if that’s how you choose to intemperate it…”
Anyway, he told me they interview on this day and this day and not on the day I had off. Now, if the woman who originally called had told me there were specific days, I could have made sure I was off one on one of them because the first time I talked to her, the schedule wasn’t final yet. I told Mr. Snippy to forget it and hung up.
I may be passing up the opportunity of a lifetime but my gut is telling me that there is just something not right about the whole thing. I’m going to trust my gut. But I’m still a bit miffed. I have better things to do with my time than to play phone tag for nothing.
Heeltastic:
I’m thinking about making my own version of this. I would simply order it (it would be cheaper) but I can’t find an ingredients list anywhere and can’t get one out of the company. I’m afraid it would arrive and be full of PG, mineral oil and parabens.
I’ve started a thread about it here and on TBB to see if I can get the list before I order from GoW.
Hair:
AG jokingly asked me again today if she could just hack all my hair off. JP was going to trim a tree in our lot and she asked to use the chain saw for my hair.
What she doesn’t get is that, even if I wanted to cut–which I am constantly considering–I wouldn’t do it after comments like that just to keep from giving her the satisfaction.
I am about one inch from hip and 1 1/2 inches from 30 inches. I don’t think, even the last time it was very long, it was ever 30 inches. I’ve decided to grow at least to there and then revisit the cutting back to another length issue.
Dilemma solved
I was unable to talk to anyone about the report they wanted me to file so I hadn’t done anything yet. Today I was informed that the dogs were euthanized. Sorry KJ.
I have no idea if these dogs were rehab-able but they certainly weren’t going to get any help in the hands of that man!!!
Hair:
I’ve been getting a lot of comments on my hair lately. I say “comments” because only one of them was an actual compliment. A regular in the store was actually looking when I turned around to get her cigarettes and said, “OMG, I’ve never really seen your hair before, it’s so long. It’s amazing!!”
The other comments were from Dr. B: “when did you get all this hair?” Both Dr. B’s assistant and a coworker asked me how long I was going to let it grow and AG asked me when I was “finally” going to cut it 
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I need to trim my bangs again. They’re long enough ATM to to go into my French braid. That’s too long.
Other than that, things are pretty much status quo in the hair department.
Health:
I did not call my MD. I woke up the next day and felt “normal” again. Maybe the BH doc is right, maybe I’m better off without them. I do plan on getting some Sam-E when I get paid next week. I’ll spend as much on two months worth of that (through VitaCost) as I would one month of prescription meds.
I’ve been asked several times since I’ve been back to work if I was loosing weight. The scale says I haven’t but it’s possible that I’ve gotten muscle back that I lost when I wasn’t working.
It’s very hard for me to tell just by the way my clothes fit because the first place they get tight and the last place they loosen up is the waist. When I had stomach surgery in 2003 I lost 30 lbs. but was still able to wear the pants I was wearing before surgery because the waist still fit. Granted, they were very loose in the hips, butt and thighs….
Garden of Wisdom Body Lotion (base):
99% of the time when I get out of the shower, I apply lotion–everywhere–well *almost* everywhere. Have done since I was a teenager and started caring about how I look. I don’t know what made me even bother trying GoW’s lotion, I am not unhappy with BWC’s body lotion, but I did. All I can say is 
!!
First of all, when it is applied, it turns white. You have to spend a little time working it into the skin. I had the same problem with Whole Foods 365 brand which is one of the reasons I don’t use it. Anyway, the real problem is that as I was detangling my hair and applying make-up I kept getting this whiff of something that smelled like horse stable. Now, stable smell is fine in it’s proper setting, I like the smell of hay and grass. The manure smell I could do without but it’s tolerable. However, I don’t think me smelling like a stable fresh out of the shower is appropriate 
It was bad enough that I felt the need to get back in the shower and wash it off even though I really didn’t have time.
It’s probably a reaction to an ingredient or combination of ingredients with my personal body chemistry. 
Computer stuff:
I hate Internet Explorer 8 
. IE7 was fine but IE8 needs to be chucked!! I can’t get it to remember my log-in info even though I have set IE8 to remember them and have clicked “remember me” in every site I want to remain logged in to.
I’m trying Firefox again. I tried it several years ago and hated it but I didn’t know about add on then–did they have add-on in 2004?? Anyway, I’m liking it so far. We’ll see….
I’m still alive
I feel like I’m getting back into the swing of work. It’s still very hard not to have the I hate this place, I hate working here, I just wanna go home mantra running through my head. Days still drag but not quite as slowly. My back is adjusting but my feet are getting worse. Last night I was woken up by my Achilles tendons cramping.
OTOH I somehow feel like I won’t have to deal with it much longer. I have no idea why, maybe, with my revamped resume, I’ll actually get a new job, maybe I’ll win the lottery 
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Seriously though, my left palm has been itching a lot lately. Most people would say that’s a sign that money is coming to me. I’m not very superstitious, however, so I’m wondering what medical condition would cause it.
Craftiness:
I finally finished the friendship bracelet I mentioned. It turned out too big. I want to make a smaller one.
Here it is. anyone want it? I’ll send it FOC. It’s 7 1/4″ from where the knots start to where they end and 1 1/2″ of twisted thread on one end and 2″ on the other.
Oh, I should mention to anyone who really wants it that it does have a little pet hair woven in, unintentionally, of course. I have four cats and Rajah is in full shed mode ATM. I couldn’t help it. I got as much out as I could.
Hair:
Still on my head. I haven’t done anything rash like get the scissors out again.
Health:
I *meant* to call last week and make an appointment to see my doc about antidepressants this coming week but I forgot. There goes my ego again, trying to take over.
I still think I would benefit, even for a short time. I’m going to call on Mon as soon as they open if my ego doesn’t push it out of my head again.
Feral kitties:
We now have five regulars that come eat at the nightly buffet we set out. They’re getting more use to us and to Rajah. They’ll let us get within a foot or so from them as long as the fence is between us and the other day, Mama was inside the fence and let Rajah walk right up to her. They stood nose-to-nose for a time but when Mama tried to leave Rajah kept blocking her way so we called her back to us.
We haven’t seen the babies for a couple of weeks now. I don’t know if Mama ran them off because it was time for them to grow up or if some other wild life got them. We saw a fox they other day, it was apparently eating the food we’d set out for the cats but ran off when we got close not knowing it wasn’t another feral kittie. It was dark and their bowls are on the other side of the garage so I’ve walked right up to them not knowing they’re there and them not knowing I was coming until I was practically on top of them.
Skin:
I got Marityme Gel, Light n’ Brite Serum, and Mandelic Acid from Garden of Wisdom and it arrived about a week ago. I’ve been applying it twice a day and I think I’m seeing a little lightening of the melasma on my cheeks. Not much difference in the big upper lip melasma yet. I’m also not seeing any more zits. Still healing a big one from my cycle but that’s it. I haven’t formed a verdict yet but it appears to be looking good.
Got to get ready for work now. BAH!!!
updates
I did go back to work on Thursday. I worked three days in a row, I have Sunday and Monday off and then I’ll have at least six days in a row. That was the only way to get me as many days on my first paycheck and keep me on the weekend schedule I was on so that I am working on the same weekends Sk8er Boi is on call.
My feet hurt and my back hurt and the days dragged on as if there were three hours to every one. I was welcomed back warmly by everyone from my coworkers to my customers. I was rudely reminded of customers whom I didn’t like by them showing up and immediately embarking on the behavior for which I decided I didn’t like them in the first place; all of them dirty old (or not so old) men crossing the line from harmless flirting to offensiveness.
Sk8er Boi saw a news snippet on a website that I’d not heard of yet. It’s called Emurse and there is all kinds of information on revamping resumes to get them noticed. I’ve been exploring it for a couple hours this morning and already found a couple of things wrong with mine. I’ll probably not really get too far into revamping my resumes until tomorrow when Sk8er Boi is at work and I can concentrate better.
Health:
I’ve decided that I probably do need some help in the anti-depressant/anti-anxiety department. I’ve noticed that I’m restless when I’m home alone. I can’t sit anywhere for long. I go watch TV and I keep thinking I want to go back to the computer but I get here and I’m bored here too.
But then I can’t get motivated to do anything else either. When I know I need to leave the house for something–groceries, etc.– I let myself be sloth-like get distracted and before I know it, if I don’t get a move on, I will be out when Sk8er Boi arrives home. That’s not to say that I am required to be home with dinner on the table like a good little wifey but it’s simply more efficient. I’m just saying.
And I started a craft project yesterday and got sick of it within about 30 minutes. It was a friendship bracelet idea and would normally take me about two hours to perfect the process for my idea and finish it but I just couldn’t do it….
I was thiiiiis close to cutting my hair when I had my “episode.” I had the scissors out and everything but was unable to get a hold of it in a way that I could get a straight cut so, after about 15 minutes of trying, I gave up. I would only have cut about three inches but it would have been enough to make my favorite knot bun thingy impossible.
The fact that I would have actually cut it if I could have gotten it straight tells me a lot about my state of mind.
Unfortunately, I’ll have to wait a week or two to get to my doc. Bills to be paid and all….
Skin:
I realized that I made it through PMS this cycle without a huge zit storm. I did have a few more than usual but they resolved quickly and were gone. I guess the derma e stuff is doing better than I thought.
I did order some of the stuff from Garden of Wisdom for lightening melasma. Yes, I indulged in retail therapy rather than going to the doc. If I had not spent that money, I could have gone for those anti-depressants tomorrow but I hadn’t decided I wanted to go until the day after the order was placed Oh well, it’s too late now.
Sitting:
Haven’t done it since it made me nauseous last week. I haven’t wanted to, I hate feeling like I’m going to throw up!
On the lighter side:
The feral kitties are getting less skittish around us. We got a bag of very inexpensive cat food and have been feeding them.
Yesterday morning, I let Rajah out and the kitty with the two babies (Mama) and one of the tuxedos with a spot under his nose (Charlie Chaplin) were out by the car we got for J. It’s parked inside the fence because it still needs tires and brakes and J still hasn’t gotten her license. Charlie was sitting on the car and Mama was underneath and Rajah walked right up to the car and sniffed around it. Normally the cats would have throw a fit and escaped over the fence but they just watched her calmly as you please. It was kinda funny.
Oh and Sk8er Boi got the power steering hose (a $65 part) replaced on my Jeep. What’s left is the window motor (a $195 part) and the radiator (a $175 part). Thankfully, Sk8er Boi is a motorhead and can do the work himself or it would be a lot longer before we would be able to get any of it fixed!!!
I remembered
I started out with the conscious thought of letting my mind lead me to what I needed to know. I envisioned a much younger self taking my now self and leading the way. She took off running and, of course, I stumbled and fell flat on my face.
I realized I was trying too hard and so I just sat there. Not too long later, I found myself in a circular room with doors all around. Each door was marked with and attribute I need or would like to develop or improve on like self acceptance, self love, psychic abilities….
Out of each door walk a woman in turn and embraced me. Then some metaphysical tornado thing happened and we all merged into one person–me. Then I sloughed off the “old” me like it was a heavy coat and walked out of the room.
The end
Skin:
I’m seeing some results from the derma e products. Not bad, I guess, but what I’ve discovered is that I have terribly mottled skin colour, especially my upper lip making me look like I have a mustache. I’m sure it’s from the summers I spent practically living in an outdoor pool when sunscreen was virtually unheard of.
I could cover it up but I have, from the time I got interested in make-up, despised base/foundation. I can’t stand how it felt on my face, like I was wearing spackle–and no, I wasn’t applying it too thick thankyouverymuch 
. I know there are better options out there now but I can’t bring myself to try them. The last time I tried something new, it was mineral/powder and it sunk into even the slightest crease I had!! I know, I know, I either had poor quality (I don’t even remember the brand now) of simply need more practice in applying it but I got irritated and threw it away.
As mentioned, I’ve been surfing Garden of Wisdom and they have a couple of “lightening” products I think I’m going to try. They’ve gotten good reviews.
My Emu/Helichrysum oil mixture:
I have grossly thick calluses all around the outside of my heels, have had for as long as I can remember caring about what my feet looked like. I’m talking thick. I have one of those pedicure callus shavers and I could take off a good 1/4 before I got down to non-callused skin. I don’t take that much off but I could.
Well, I massage my oil mixture all over the bottom of my foot not just the arches and, I don’t know what it’s doing for the Plantar Fasciitis but it’s actually softening those calluses up!!! Nothing–and I mean nothing, no lotion, cream, chemical sloughing gel, sleeping in those socks made to help soften feet (including the ones with gel heels) and slathered in copious amounts of cream–has ever done what this stuff is doing. I have had to shave and file them for as long as I can remember. But now…well, they’re not gone but the aren’t getting rough and catching on things like sheets and sock!!! 
Aztec Secret Indian Healing Clay
The instructions say mix 1:1 with ACV and warns the your skin might be red afterward although it doesn’t say way. I don’t know if it’s the clay or the ACV 
It also really contracts the skin on your face as it dries!! Sorry no pics of that but I did get pics of the redness for your amusement:
It really brings out the blotchiness too!
Hair:
I also got pics of my new favorite get-it-out-of-my-way hairstyle. I simply tie it in a knot and stick a wavelength pin or two in it.
More detailed instructions:
wrap hair, as if for a bun, once around leaving it slightly loose.
Pull ends of hair through center of bun.
Secure with pins as needed.
This works well for my length/thickness. I have no idea how to tell someone with longer hair to do it.
