I’m with Rain
I’m not waiting anymore either.
It’s been a while but Rain once posted about a dream she’d had where she’d found a zipper in her skin and when she unzipped it, she stepped out of a “fat suit” (her words) and found a lovely, slender woman inside.
I’ve actually used that visualization in self hypnosis sessions. Lately I’ve been telling my inner lovely, slender woman that it’s time to come out, that she would be happier if she stopped hiding, that she would be healthier and feel better too. It’s too early to tell if she’s listening but I’m being persistent.
I haven’t tried sitting for a long time. I need to remind myself that all I need to do is sit. I don’t need to actively do self-hypnosis. I can just sit there and let my mind wander.
I’ve also been trying to get a nap in every afternoon. There are no two ways about it: I don’t get enough sleep. I am a night person and never make it to bed before 9:30 but it’s usually more like 10:30. I get up at 4:30. I go through phases where I wake every night in the wee hours. I usually go right back to sleep but it is still a disruption in sleep. Even if I didn’t wake up, that’s still only 6 hours of sleep and it’s simply not enough. Therefore: nap!
Cars and Spiritualism:
Sk8er Boi’s jeep is currently in pieces in the garage. Something broke when he was going 60 MPH and flapped around under there until he got it stopped. The flapping did a bunch of damage. Thankfully, he has been able to rob parts of the wrecked Jeep he bought so we’ve had minimal cost there. However, he’s going to have to bastardize the transfer cases from both Jeeps to make one working one. He’s waiting for a co-worker to help him on that.
Anyway, what that means for me is that I have been car-less for three days now because he is driving mine. I walk to work so no big deal there but I am going stir crazy at home.
I had to ask Shari to take me to the grocery store today. Shari is the other friend I mentioned who started out just being a regular at my store.
So, Shari tells me today that she is Wiccan. This is what I have been looking for, someone who is in the area who I can go to with questions etc. Strangely, I shied away from the subject. I guess–for that moment–my tired brain decided that I would have to make a decision right then and there about my “religious” status. I haven’t mentioned anything to Sk8er Boi about not being Christian. I really don’t know what he would think about it. I guess I’m afraid it would majorly put him off. He is not a religions man but he does believe in God.
But after thinking about it, I know that I can just talk to her about her experiences, ask her questions about rituals etc without actually declaring myself any religion.
Speaking of Wiccans in my area, I’ve received two emails from my Which Vox profile (which I have totally not been active on in months). The first email was from a man and, even though he never said anything in the actually words he wrote, the feeling was that he was a sleeze hitting on me. The second was from a woman who was semi close but the first sentence she wrote was something like “it try and stay mostly on the light side…” Um, OK, I don’t think I want to associate with anyone who mess around with dark magic. I do believe there is evil out there and I don’t want to muck about with it.
eBookwise:
It’s Wed 11/4 and I have not received the USB cord. I’m going to give it until tomorrow in case USPS is a little slower than last time.
I’m thinking about just filing for a total refund, shipping this damn thing back and buying a new one. This one has suddenly developed a black line across the top. I can make it go away but it’s back the next time I turn the thing on. It doesn’t interfere with the menus or reading but I fear it may be indicative of things to come. I’m going to be really pissed if the thing shoots craps shortly.
I just checked the listing again, there is no “as is” or “no warranty” mentioned. I’ll have to decide what I want to do by tomorrow.
Fire, Fire!!!
As I said, there is no fire so I have no idea what triggered it but every animal in the house is freaked, big poofy tails and all!
Punishment for a 40 year old??
My mother is apparently still punishing me for not wanting her around the day of my surgery. In case you didn’t remember, it was in APRIL!!! She bowed out of dinner with us for my father’s birthday because she was “sick.” Last week, after harassing me for specifics on get-together time and place, she bowed out of dinner for Sk8er Boi’s birthday.
Dad called about two hours before we were supposed to meet and said Mom “thought she was starting to get a cold…” During the conversation, he pushed several times to go ahead with plans with just him but I told him, no, we could meet next week. It didn’t occur to me until after I was off the phone that he was pushing hard to come without her.
At this point, we have tentative plans to go out sometime this weekend. If she bows out again, we’re going to tell them to forget it. This is just stupid!
Why Does He Do That?
I’ve only gotten to page 23 but I am reading it.
To his credit, Sk8er Boi saw this book sitting on the dining room table and didn’t even ask me about it. If it had been the Maggot, he would have said, “what, you think I’m abusive????”
Um, duh!
Blackberry 8900:
This is the phone we have agreed on to get J.
Vel, if it were up to me….
I keep having to tell myself that it is a birthday present and that she is asking for nothing else. Whether she expects something else or not is yet to be seen but, if she is, she will be sorely disappointed.
I did hear Sk8er Boi say to B, “we can keep buying you guys phones…” when they were discussing which phone she should get. I have much less of a problem with getting B a new phone even though it’s not a gift. She has never had a new phone.
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You know, Sk8er Boi has been fixing cars for Dr. B on the side. It saves Dr. B money and puts some extra in our pocket. The thing is that all the cars that we’ve had in our garage have been Dr. B’s kid’s cars. Sk8er Boi made the statement to me the Br. B is not doing his kids any favors by paying to have their cars fixed for them.
Um…
This is different how?
Love your body:
“written in red” by Louise Hay (it actually says the “in red” part at the beginning).
This is an audio book of a series of “positive affirmation treatments.” I have been listening to it for a couple of weeks now. She suggests you listen to it twice a day for at least 30 day. It’s an hour long, I sometimes have trouble listening to it all the way though once a day. But I’m trying.
I have noticed a few minor changes. Mainly just booting negative thoughts out not actually having positive thoughts about the things I have dislike for…as long as I have cared what I looked like.
Heeltastic:
I didn’t get many responses my post on the H&B board for this. a couple suggesting other products and one suggesting I make it myself. Well, that’s what I’m planning to do. I just haven’t decided on a base yet. I’m stuck between getting some shea butter and using the GoW base body lotion I already have. Between the neem oil which GoW says stinks to high heaven and the fact that I will only be using it on my feel, the mild stable smell shouldn’t be a problem.
